Well the time is finally here, tomorrow I will be launching my book for all the world to see. Am I ready?
I think back at the last few months at all the things I have learned, and all the people I have met on this amazing journey. It has been nothing short of incredible. I have grown in so many ways.
Today my mind is full of all the things I need to do in the next 24 hours to get ready and my head is spinning. Have I done enough?
Then a thought comes to me, Let Go and Let God. It is what it is. If my book changes one life, one soul, it has all been worth it.
I know it has changed mine! It has brought me healing, pride, resolution, a feeling of accomplishment, and so much more, and maybe that is all it is meant to do.
Only God knows.
In deep gratitude!
Our lives are like a puzzle. We don't always know where the pieces are going to go, but as they are put together, one piece at a time, they all fit together perfectly to create a beautiful picture. Here is some puzzle fun for you! Try to create a beautiful picture.
Photo courtesy of Debbie Richards.
I struggled for years with low self-esteem, depression, and obesity. I never felt good enough, and I thought I didn’t matter—I thought there was something wrong with me. Shortly after my thirtieth birthday, I remember getting up one morning and sitting on the edge of my bed, feeling as if the life had drained out of me. I had had short bouts of depression prior to this, but this precipitated what became fifteen long, agonizing years of feeling totally empty. My life had no meaning; I felt as if I was just going through the motions. I didn’t want to live, but I was afraid to die.
I always seemed to be searching and yearning for something, but I didn’t know what. Something was missing. I felt as if there were a hole or void in my heart, and I didn’t know what it was.
I tried filling the void with food, but it never took away the emptiness I felt inside. I was always looking for answers, always doubting, and had very little faith.
When my life was as bad as it could be, while I was completely lost in the abyss, my dad died. Although I almost went over the edge, that event created “the shift” I needed to move from darkness and despair to joy and happiness again.
I have heard it said from the darkest moments come the greatest gifts, and that often it is our deepest pain that empowers us to grow into our highest self.
My life is a true testimony to that. This is my story of how I went from lost and broken, struggling through obstacles, wandering aimlessly through a life with no meaning, to one of joy, happiness, and fulfillment, finding not only God but myself.
It is my wish that if you have ever felt the same, my story will help you through your thorns so that you too may thrive.
Just remember in the winter far beneath the bitter snow,
Lies a seed that with the sun’s love,
in the spring becomes the rose.
Life is rosey, :)
Photo by Debbie Richards
When I was a young girl, I watched the movie The
Rose, based on the life of Janis Joplin and starring Bette Midler. Bette plays Mary Rose Foster, a young woman whose music career is beginning to take off. Throughout the movie we witness her wonderful, exciting life as she goes onto fame, fortune, and a life some only dream about.
Then, as sometimes happens, the fame becomes too much
for her, and she starts to spiral out of control. She turns to drugs
and alcohol, which destroys her career, relationships, and, in the
end, her life.
I loved the movie, especially the theme song, “The Rose.” I
grew up in a musical family, so music has always been a part of
my life—a passion even. Music moves me and touches my soul,
and singing helps me express my feelings. So shortly after seeing
the movie I bought the music and lyrics for “The Rose.” I came
home, sat down at the piano, and learned to play it.
One day my dad heard me singing it and said, “That is a beautiful song, Carla.” From then on, any time I sat at the piano, he would ask me to sing it. My mom and sisters would harmonize with me. It became my trademark, and even now, years later, anytime we have a family get-together, when the guitars come out, I am requested to sing “The Rose.”
Funny thing is, for all those years I sang the song, I never really resonated with the true meaning of the words. Now, I am blown away by how it has represented my life.
Stay tuned for more...
Happy Independence Day!
Love and freedom,
Beginning July 1, and for the entire month of July, I will be hosting a gratitude challenge. Daily gratitude has been one of the biggest things I have done to change my life and find joy and happiness.
I am very grateful for one of my participants who is blogging his experience during my challenge. His blog post is 31 Days of Gratitude
by Kiril Kundurazieff. If you would like to join the challenge go to my Facebook page and join the event at Through GRATITUDE I Thrive
.Love and GRATITUDE,Carla