In the last few weeks I have shared how, for fifteen years, I suffered with depression. You may read the posts here:  Part I, Part II, Part III.

With the help of my doctor, medication, and psychologists, but also finding and nurturing my spirit, I was able to overcome it.  All this happened eight years ago and I haven’t had depression since.  Don’t get me wrong, there are still times in my life that I feel a little down and drift back to the deep dark place, but it is ALWAYS because I have been forgetting about ME, and as soon as I return to my spiritual rituals, life is good again, it NEVER fails!

We are so conditioned to only worry about the physical things.  Eat healthy, keep fit, and look after our bodies; that definitely helps;  but that isn’t all there is.   We need to nurture our minds and our spirits as well, especially our spirit!  Just because we can’t see it doesn’t mean it doesn’t exist. 

It was learning who I really was and knowing I had the power, but most importantly it was finding and surrendering to something much more powerful than I, that helped me to pass through. 

I share my experience in hopes to help you.  I see so many people being afraid to face their demons and look within.  That is where the light is.  That is where the love is.  That is where the healing begins.  I pray with all my heart and SOUL that you find yours.  Don’t be afraid to step into the light and kick the depression in the butt and find the beautiful flower you are.   Through all the thorns and scrapes and scars, it is there, quietly waiting for you.  All you have to do is open your heart and let it shine through.

To the beauty in you,

In previous posts I wrote about how I suffered from depression for fifteen years.  I tried every conventional treatment there was with no relief.  I read many books and studied many success and spiritual gurus to find the answers I was so desperately seeking.  They all said the same thing!  “The answers lie within.  We are spiritual beings, we have the ability to choose our thoughts, and our bodies are just a vessel.

You can read them here:  Part I
and Part II

I finally decided I would take a shot at it, what did I have to lose?  I desperately tried to find this soul that they spoke about.  I didn’t know how to go about it at first and it was really hard work but I kept at it, because the alternative was rather dismal.  I started meditating and writing in a gratitude journal daily.  Huh, that was hard!   What the hell did I have to be grateful for? I started monitoring my thoughts and forced myself to replace the negative, ugly thoughts with good and positive ones.  I started spending time in nature, just sitting and reveling in its beauty.  I played soothing beautiful music; I sat in silence and just listened.  And soon, very soon, my world around me began to change.  I felt more at peace.  I wasn’t as angry as I once was.  The black cloud began to lift and I felt happier.  Hmmmm, maybe there was something to this. 

One day while sitting in the silence I heard a voice say loud and clear!  Your happiness is inside of you!   WOW! Really?  Who the heck is this talking to me?

Through all of this soul searching I had many aha moments but the biggest one that came to me was that I LIVE in a physical body, I HAVE an intellect (mind), but I AM a spiritual being.  My soul is my spirit, and when I took the time to nurture it, listen to it, understand it, and not be afraid of it, my whole life changed!

To be continued….

May you find your soul,